The Return of the Queen

After much ado and pressing,Joyce finally replied an SMS of mine.

In her SMSes she said that I only called her twice(but I remember over 30 calls being made on that day alone) which she did not reply because she did not know what to say to me.The same logic was also applied to why she did not reply any of my prior SMSes.She said she did not see her importance in my life anymore and that she avoids me as a means of protecting herself.She also said that she is waiting for a 'more visible direction' from me.Other stuff she touched on was how I do not suffer from any lack in companionship to church and that she felt sad that I actually went ahead with Maybel that day and left her with an empty reserved seat.She felt that to protect herself (again) that she would go to church alone despite the fact that she does not enjoy the solitude that it brings.She is tired of taking the lead and demanding from people...

Well..in a way I am glad that she replied finally.At least I can somewhat put this issue to rest.I have little regrets for what happened except for the fact that I may have lost my best friend because she failed to see that all that happened was out of her own doing.

Unrealistic expectations:She wants me to work my life away.That is something I just will not do.There is alot more to life than making money. Sorry dear...

My alibiThat day the only reasons I went to church with Maybel was because
(1)Joyce was helping out at the Children's Church and told me that she would not be able to attend service that day.
(2)Maybel lives very near to where I live and along the route I ply to church every weekend.She so happened to be attending the same service that day so it is only natural that I gave her a lift to church.
(3)I informed Joyce before hand that I was with Maybel at service
(4) Joyce was invited to join us during the church service.
(5)Joyce was invited to join us for lunch after service

I did what I thought was right and gave Joyce every opportunity to be a part of all we did. She declined my invites and is mad that I 'went off with another woman'?

Please give me your subjective opinions on this mess.(I know it is gonna be hard since all you guys love me so much :P)...or maybe not....no point flogging a dead horse