Bear bear's birthday

Today just so happens to also be Joyce's birthday. I was pondering if I should or if I should not send my greetings. In the end I decided against the former as I felt there is little point in always being the 'nice guy'. She even forgot my birthday gift the last time round. The nerve of her! Although I was casual about it at the time,in retrospect it was a sign of things to come. In the following weeks my whole world fell apart and I fell into denial and depression. But the dark clouds have passed and a new life beckons me..

Although in my heart I wish her every happiness and blessings in her life, I just cannot think past my own disappointments and my own hurt to bring myself to tell her so..at least not yet...

I would rather just try to forget it ever happened than to dwell on a person that I know I can never change for loves sake.