to go away and dream it up all over again...

The last few days have been hard for me. I have not slept or eaten well since this whole thing started. I guess I put too much hope in our relationship. Nadia claims that there are 'severals sides to his personality have come creeping out and I don't like it.' I would definitely love to hear about these sides to my personality.But that is not what this post is about.


Nadia and I have had a long,storied past. Lotsa good memories. More good ones than bad definitely. And I will always treasure those.

I just find it hard to fathom why she would turn on me like this. She lists all her reasons but still somehow I am not convinced.Tactless and biased somehow do not quite cut it. The intellectual property argument? I always cut and paste stuff wholesale without my own comments. I 'steal' stuff off other sites and never link/credit the writers. So how is it connected to all of this?

I guess I will never know.

But rather than let this sorry saga keep me down, I think I will try to gain strength from it. The proverbial silver lining in every cloud. It is darkest just before the dawn. An opportunity to take a step back and evaluate my universe. Make changes for the better and improve on my better points. I may not be perfect. But at least I can make a go of it.