Sunday, September 10, 2006

The entire sms again

Last night Agnes asked me if I was still in contact with Joyce. So I told her about this particular SMS:

I m sorry. I know i ve hurt u a lot. When i went back to u the second time,
i m really trying to get myself back into the relationship.But i failed to do
so. Thats y i left u once again. Dun think that i do not feel hurt jus because i
m the one who initiated it.I put in jus as much time and effort as u in the
relationship. Though at some point i m still thinking y u didnt attempt to win
my heart back at all,i can only conclude this is yr character and i m sure there
ii be someone out there who will be very much better than me in accepting u as
wat u r. I admit that i m a true failure in possessing this virtue,and jus got
to learn to be as strong,optimistic and gracious as u. I know talking abt it is
meaningless now.Jus to let u know,Yr new relationshio has already been made
known to me. You'll have my blessings. Isnt that what u want me to think love is
all abt... Take care.


I am now in a long-term relationship with Agnes. Happier than I ever been in years. I did love Joyce during those years that we were together. I could not imagine loving anyone else. But in the end I had little to hold on to. There is only so much you can give of yourself and only so much that one can sacrifice befoe it comes back to haunt you. I am perfectly happy in my current relationship. Agnes is a lot more level headed and self -sacrificial. At least I know in my heart that she will be there for me when I need her. Somehow that assurance was never forthcoming when I was with Joyce. It seemed each day was a constant struggle to put out fires and giving up the things I loved for the benefit of our relationship. I never felt that she appreciated all I did for her. That is where my bitterness stems from. Bitterness never does anyone any good. Very often the object of your own bitterness goes on through life oblivious to the hurt they caused. I guess she wanted all or nothing. That even when we were not together she wanted to have a hand in what I did and who I associated with. But the thing that hurt most was losing a friend....

It is time for me to forget my bitter past and work on making my current relationship work...

0 Comments:

Post a Comment

*beep*...Your comments are important to us. Please leave your comments after the beep....*beep*

Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]

<< Home

~ ~ since 19th December 2008 ~~

~ ~ since 16 June 2007 ~ ~


~ ~ since 19 February 2005 ~ ~


My Other Blogs


My Fav Blogs:



Furries
  • Hamster Hideout
  • Ministry of Pets
  • Singapore Hamster Club
  • Pets.com Forum
  • Rabbit Health
  • The Animal Concerns Research and Education Society (Acres)
  • house rabbit society
  • SPCA Singapore
  • Rabbit care




  • rasslin':
  • PW Torch
  • WWE.com
  • JR's Blog


    nature:
  • Exploration Trails
  • Sunrise-Sunset Times
  • Weather
  • events this week
  • Wild Singapore
  • Nature Society


    movies:
  • Movie Spoiler.com
  • Rotten Tomatoes
  • iFilm
  • Singapore Cinemas
  • www.starwars.com
  • humor experiments
  • thor links
  • movie mania
  • ryoni


    www:
  • Flickr Badge
  • Flickr
  • Blog Things
  • Absolute Backgrounds
  • HardwareZone
  • ZD Net Reviews
  • HTML Colors
  • Blogskins
  • smiley repository
  • glitter graphics
  • flaming text
  • dumpr
  • basehead
  • tiny URL
  • huge URL


    music:
  • iWebMusic
  • Music Video Codes
  • u2exit.com
  • www.u2.com
  • Jewel's Official Website
  • LIVE-the Official Site
  • Sound Buzz
  • Imeem



  • storage:
  • Lock+ Store
  • Storhub Self Storage
  • Store-It


    Travel:
  • Valuair
  • Tiger Airways
  • Air Asia
  • Jet Star Asia
  • Zuji.Com
  • Lonely Planet Online
  • Worldisround-travel pictures



  • food:
  • Makansutra
  • Makantime.com
  • SBestFood.com


    church:
  • New Creation Church
  • Bible.com Online World



  • other stuff:
  • Mobile One
  • Wikipedia
  • How Stuff Works!
  • Talkingcock.com
  • D Storm Entertainment
  • Picures of Me!
  • Dictionary.com
  • Nadia's Picture Page
  • Nat's Picture Page
  • Singapore Girls Galore
  • AskMen.com-Men's Portal



  • Blog Madness:
  • Sarong Party Girl
  • Rambotan
  • Jade Underground
  • Mr Miyagi
  • Shelly
  • Botal Gorilla
  • Bounce Back to Life
  • The Weblog Review
  • Tan Kin Lian's Blog
  • Boing Boing
  • Sheena's Little Fragment's of Time
  • Negativities of a Chronically Vulgar Girl
  • Mic's Life
  • Intoxication
  • Iz Reloaded
  • Simon's World
  • Singabloodypore
  • singapore official porn site
  • B*tchingLOG...not a weBLOG
  • Server Not Found
  • Dying in the Windy City
  • Brose's World
  • Black High Heels of Euphoria
  • Angel of Night
  • If I Could Only See
  • Pet's Paradise
  • Tequila Mockingbird
  • Fifth Annual Weblog Awards
  • Chase me ladies, I'm in the cavalry
  • Going[Wild] & Glowing[Charm]
  • Pei Yun
  • Alvin's Spiel
  • Alvin and Robina
  • Scorpio-The Sexiest Star Sign
  • Let Love lead the Way
  • Desafinado
  • G.marks the spot
  • Penny in a Nutshell
  • Europe
  • Mr Otaku
  • Metroblogging Singapore
  • Alvinology
  • My Photo
    Name:
    Location: Singapore

    Powered by Blogger

    Subscribe to
    Posts [Atom]

    Site Meter