The entire sms again

Last night Agnes asked me if I was still in contact with Joyce. So I told her about this particular SMS:

I m sorry. I know i ve hurt u a lot. When i went back to u the second time,
i m really trying to get myself back into the relationship.But i failed to do
so. Thats y i left u once again. Dun think that i do not feel hurt jus because i
m the one who initiated it.I put in jus as much time and effort as u in the
relationship. Though at some point i m still thinking y u didnt attempt to win
my heart back at all,i can only conclude this is yr character and i m sure there
ii be someone out there who will be very much better than me in accepting u as
wat u r. I admit that i m a true failure in possessing this virtue,and jus got
to learn to be as strong,optimistic and gracious as u. I know talking abt it is
meaningless now.Jus to let u know,Yr new relationshio has already been made
known to me. You'll have my blessings. Isnt that what u want me to think love is
all abt... Take care.

I am now in a long-term relationship with Agnes. Happier than I ever been in years. I did love Joyce during those years that we were together. I could not imagine loving anyone else. But in the end I had little to hold on to. There is only so much you can give of yourself and only so much that one can sacrifice befoe it comes back to haunt you. I am perfectly happy in my current relationship. Agnes is a lot more level headed and self -sacrificial. At least I know in my heart that she will be there for me when I need her. Somehow that assurance was never forthcoming when I was with Joyce. It seemed each day was a constant struggle to put out fires and giving up the things I loved for the benefit of our relationship. I never felt that she appreciated all I did for her. That is where my bitterness stems from. Bitterness never does anyone any good. Very often the object of your own bitterness goes on through life oblivious to the hurt they caused. I guess she wanted all or nothing. That even when we were not together she wanted to have a hand in what I did and who I associated with. But the thing that hurt most was losing a friend....

It is time for me to forget my bitter past and work on making my current relationship work...