time and again

I was supposed to help ferry Agnes's mum and dad to the dialysis centre. But I ended up reaching Bedok South late and they had to hail a cab to get there themselves. Understandably all parties concerned were upset over the matter.

I guess I got a little carried away with what I was doing at home yesterday and really lost track of time. Before I knew it it was 4.25 pm! And I was supposed to be there at 4.30!! I made a mad rush down but it was to no avail. The damage had already been done. It is so hard to earn trust and so very easy to lose in an instance.

I guess if there has ever been a bugbear in my relationship with Agnes it has been her parents, and namely her mum. Do not forget the 'long face' incident where I was so upset at having to drive them to a funeral that I wore an appropriately solemn long face all throughout the rest of the day. Agnes was so disappointed with me. And her mum was too as I had seemed unwilling to help. Never a good attribute for a potential son-in-law to have. And then there was the 'hair incident' where her mum once again commented on my hair, and I rudely retorted that 'her hair was not so good'. That made Agnes upset, as any good daughter would do in defence of her mum. And now the latest incident.

In between all of this, there were times when things that Agnes told me that hit close to home. I have always been able to get along with most people's parents. In fact most of them think quite highly of me, with few exceptions. Those exceptions were wankers anyway. But the point is that it is frustrating to always be hitting a wall when it comes to this aspect. It is not that I am not trying or doing things to piss them off on purpose. But it feels like it at times. I want to much to be loved and trusted by them. I treasure Agnes so much but all I ever seem to do is do is disappoint her. She loves her mum dearly. She is the most important person to her in this world. But it is just so hard to get things right...

Maybe it is like Agnes said,'u blew the chance urself'.