The Three Wise Monkeys have names: Mizaru (See no evil), Mikazaru (Hear no evil), and Mazaru (Speak no evil).

Yesterday we went down to the bridal studio to select photos for our wedding albums and such. I must say that most of them came out better than expected. In fact we had a hard time narrowing down the number of pictures we had to select. In the end we had to pay extra so that we could have 2 albums instead of one. worth it since this is a one time expense for a once in a lifetime event. we also chose the covers of the albums and the photo frames for the photos we were gonna use for the wedding and then hang up at our flat.

still stuff to be done in regards to our big day:
- choose the songs to be played
- finalise the guest list
- go for the food tasting
- collect the chinese tea set
- prepare photographs for the video presentation

all i can think of right now, although there is definitely more to be done.

On friday I went down for an appreciation dinner at the Singapore Garden Festival. Funny how AVA and NParks have such different ways of running things. With all the problems at the office these days, it provides a stark contrast to the working conditions on the other side. I do not mind hard work as long as you get the recognition and respect for your efforts. any monetary or career advancement is a real bonus. At where I work we are treated as the red-haired step child of AVA. Our branch head is making every effort to make things as unpleasant as possible for us due to some personal vendettas. Staff morale is low and just about everyone is looking to either retire, get transferred or resign altogether. There is now an atmosphere of distrust in the previously cohesive team, as certain staff members are known to be ratting on others and divulging incriminating information on their colleagues.

which would make it nice to have a refuge from my problems at work. but alas recent events have made it difficult to find any peace of mind. In fact I find it hard to sleep some days with so many thoughts flashing through my head. Even my colleagues have been commenting on my change in demeanour the last couple of weeks. Some days I do not bother to come straight home after work. been hanging out at the bedok flat a lot more since that is now the only place where I can find solace these days. even considered moving out when the situation first arose, but cooler heads prevailed and I realised by doing so would be tantamount to running away from my problem. I once drove around aimlessly for over 3 hours just trying to make sense of things. but there are no real answers as to why things had to turn out this way.