thru the mountains and valleys we go...

It started out as a great day. My mum and dad finally agreed to join us for church at NCC. Not only that, they did not hate it or have a rotten time like they did at Harvest Force. Matter of fact they enjoyed themselves so much and had nothing but praise for Pastor Prince and NCC. You can tell by all the curious questions they asked....

We then went to Casa Bom Vento. The food was great and we all over-ate.

Then we all went for a 'little drive' along ECP,Changi and then went home. Home is where a good day suddenly turned blue....

It seems like whilst I was away on ICT last month Joyce has been some 'thinking' (with some help from her friends). She recommends that we go for some marriage counselling as she feels that we lack communication, I am not decisive enough, that I am not financially secure enough to support a family and lots of other things which probably have very little if anything to do with our relationship(read:waiters,handphone bills, picking up the tab at restaurants and uneaten vegetables).
Because of this discussion I have been feeling down all day and did not sleep well last night. It feels miserable when someone makes you feel that you are not good enough. It is not like these are new issues that have not been addressed or that I am irresponsible. Fact of the matter is that Joyce has changed so much over the years that we have been together...and me? I am still the same guy that she fell in love with.....maybe that is the crux of the problem....

I put it all down to pre-marriage jitters. Hopefully this whole thing blows over....(I wish)

Right now I am overcome with so many emotions. Maybe when I have sorted out my feelings, then I can write something more......