dirty, rotten scoundrels

Feel rotten today.It has to do with Khim. Yesterday I did the DMM report for most of the day.This was as well as my usual duties. So this morning Khim asked me if I had faxed the letter to all the orchid plant traders as she had asked me to. I told her no.She then gave me this look which conveyed irritation/disappointment/disgust all at once and stormed out of the room....

Sometimes I wonder if it is worthwhile to try your best in what you do to only get the short end of the stick time and time again. I would think that I am a model worker(time for a little self-indulgence and trumpet blowing here).I work hard,do things without complaint,highly versatile and knowledgeable.And those are only my bad points..lol...

The point is I am beginning to feel depressed again.Khim and what she does has drained the life out of me over the last year or so. I dread going to work now. My productivity has dropped markedly since she took over the section. My morale is at an all time low! I do not see any way or form that I can work with her. I remember how at the end of the year how she said that we would strive to make things better and get things moving.So far she has not kept her own side of the deal. She is still the distant,self-absorbed supervisor I always had. She seems preoccupied with her own stuff and does not seem to care what happens to me. She claims she knows and understands what I am going through, but does she really? I just cannot fathom how any section head can just leave their section to run by itself.Does she not realise that she is the one that has to literally lead her staff? It is not that I want praise or attention for my work. But I just wish she would get off her high horse and see the situation at the ground level. It is easy to criticise your staff. But when push comes to shove it is respect and trust that will pull you through the difficulties.Sadly that is lacking on both our parts.Till we both can put aside our petty differences and act like adults this problem cannot be resolved.