Women!!

I met up with Joyce as mentioned in the previous blog. I met her up at the Admiralty MRT McDonalds. I had brought along the compact flash disks from my digi cam. Joyce had wanted to take a look and print out some pictures that we had taken. The photo shop at Admiralty had no facilities for digi cams so we went to Sun Plaza to do it. Joyce drove home first and I fetched her from the car park. We then made the short drive to Sun Plaza.

The girl there was downright rude and unknowledgeable about how the machine worked. It was kinda interesting to see her actually tell customers off in full view of everyone. She was lucky she did not do that to me or Joyce. Anyway, Joyce did her thing and chose 98 pictures to be printed. They will be ready on the 10th.

We then adjourned to Nee Soon for dinner. This cafe is now infamous with us because this was the same cafe where we both agreed to end our relationship. An omen of things to come?

We ordered squid rings, sole, mocha and hot choco. Initially Joyce was reluctant to open up and discuss what was on her mind. But you could tell by the way she kept avoiding eye contact and the tears that welled up in her eyes that something was eating her up inside. It got so bad that we had to change seats so that the customers and staff would not see her tears.

When it was all said and done, I still do not know what it means! She seemed to talk in circles. But the gist of it was that she feels that we are STILL not compatible and that she was considering finding another church to go to instead of NCC. She does not want to be in my way. I guess the issues that broke us apart still hold true now.

The interesting thing about this whole fiasco is that she obviously still harbours feelings for me but her pride just will not allow her to admit it. No one would react the way she did over just a normal friend. Yet in the same voice that she says that we are incompatible she says that she wants to meet me tomorrow after church, go to Bintan again and that she want to go with me to see my nephew Alden one of these days. Kinda confusing to a dense person like me. It is like she wants to spend time with me yet she does not want to be WITH me. This seems pretty much like one of those 'time of the month' things we used to go through before. I would get told off for the slightest matter and be brought to task for anything under the sun during such periods (pun intended). And I do know that it is around that time now so maybe I should not be too surprised at her outburst. But even after all these years it still mystifies me how a persons behavior can change so dramatically during a time of physiological change. It is like the person you know has transformed into a monster almost overnight.

I sent her home and her SMS message she sent me was almost cheery and grateful. Go figure!

I did have a good chat with Niki on Messenger this afternoon. She AGAIN told me her life story *yawn* and how people did all sort of bad things to her, how all her ex's were real bastards in the end and her philosophies etc. I wanted very much to end the conversation several times being that I was already pissed off with her for what I wrote about in the previous blog. Her incessant rating and pleading did little to help matters. Being the sucker for damsels in distress that I am I heard her out. I gave lotsa advice. I was very blunt. But somehow I think she still thinks the problem is with the people around her. Sure they were no angels, but she was such a fool for getting herself into such situations in the first place.

I do not know if I would live to regret it but I did tell her we could still be friends.