Deep impact

Normally I spend my Sundays at church with Joyce with the occasional dinner or whatever activity we can do together for that particular day. But Joyce was helping out at the childrens church this past Sunday would not be able to attend any of the services...or so I thought. I resigned myself to attending church alone.

Round about 12 Maybel messaged me to 'chope' a seat for her at church since she was gonna be late. Initially Maybel was gonna attend the 11.15 service but because of her sister being late she could not attend. Since I had yet to leave my house and Maybel lived a mere 5 minutes drive from me I suggested I pick her up from her home and we go together instead.She was more than happy to accept..:p

As I was driving to Suntec, Joyce called me on my handphone to let me know that she was gonna attend the 2 pm service after all. Joyce had already found a seat for 2 in the overflow room. I let Joyce know that 'my friend' was with me and if she could get us another seat. Joyce told me she could not and that I should be with my friend instead of here in that case.

Maybel and I managed to find a seat in the overflow room but I could not see Joyce because there were too many people in the room. After the service had ended I waited outside in the lobby for Maybel and instead Joyce appeared, to be followed closely behind by Maybel. Although Maybel and Joyce have met once before, Joyce had no recollection of Maybel at all. After the usual (re)introductions we three walked down to the mall area. Maybel and I had already made plans for lunch and we asked Joyce to join us. Maybel was so nice to Joyce which under normal circumstances would have put Joyce at ease. But Joyce was visibly upset. She probably assumed me and Maybel were on a date of some sort. Joyce declined our invitation to lunch and opted to go to the gym for a workout. We 3 walked to Millenia Walk where I had parked to get some cd-roms that I had burnt for Joyce.

I guess Joyce still has feelings for me and finds it hard to accept that my world does not revolve around her now. Joyce has not come to terms with that I am going out with other people and actually having a good time (most of the time anyway). I really do not know what to say. I still love Joyce dearly but I think it is time we both moved on or reconciled. I hate being in this situation where I feel like I am being used. It seems to me whenever she needs a favour or some company she looks me up, yet keeps putting me down and makng me feel inadequate as a boyfriend. It is not fair! I just pray that she finds someone who can live up to her lofty expectations...

Anyway...Maybel and I went for a simple dinner at the Millenia food court due to ...errmm...financial restraints (hers...not mine). Thereafter we went to Marina to book tickets for a movie. We wanted to watch 'Starsky and Hutch'. While I was getting the tickets, Maybel chatted with her 'buddy' who works at a bar at the area. After that we both walked around Marina (what was left of it, after the closure of several tenants due to the upcoming renovation/revamp thingy).

The movie was fun to me but Maybel was not particularly impressed. I guess she had higher expectations of it due to all the rave reviews it was getting.