the filler blog

I been wanting to blog. Have much to say and tell about what I been up to lately but somehow I seem preoccupied with life.I even had to resort to writing stuff into my palmtop just so I would not forget.
Some of the stuff I 'plan' to write about:

- Dawn Yeo- the hottest topic in the Singapore blogosphere (besides handicapped loos)

- the Sexpo at the Expo (interesting play on words there)

- Bonuses and incentives for NSmen?? What next? 13 month pay?

- Movie review for Just Like Heaven. Summary:I like!

- Movie review for The Exorcism of Emily Rose

- Noel's birthday party review. *hic*

- There is a new cat in the house. He is tentatively called Tiny because he is...umm...small!

- Fish tank catastrophe!

- The Art of Star Wars exhibition at the Singapore Science Centre

- The new Stars Wars:Revenge of the Sith DVD review

- our latest anniversary stuff

- Ismail's housewarming

- service last week in the aftermath of Noel's party

- Some nice blogsites I stumbled upon

- Spongebob Squarepants

- The book I bought about photoshopping for $30 bucks

- Road tax,inspections and insurance for Sunny

- The search for potential wedding dinner venues

Viva la raza

Noel sms-ed me round about 11am to ask me if I had heard the news. Eddie had been found dead! He had collapsed in the bathroom whilst brushing his teeth. His body was found with his toothbrush still in his mouth. Death must have been rather quick and immediate by the looks of things. I just felt numb at that moment. I did not know what to feel at that precise moment. The thoughts that raced through my mind was ‘How?’, and then later ‘Why?’.

It all just seemed so unfair. He was only 38. He had only just moved from Tampa to Phoenix about a month ago in order to be closer to family. His life read like a novel , which just gave whatever he said more gravity and significance. He had struggled through drinking problems and even substance abuse. There had even been rumours that he had resorted to using painkillers to ease the pain his body was in, but these were never substantiated. He had only last week celebrated 4 years of sobrietry.

To all that knew Eddie, what stuck out most was how humble he really was. He was the sort of guy you could talk to about anything really. He had been there and done that. He has faced his demons and overcome them. He went out of his way for his friends and loved ones. He also shared a great love for the Lord. It showed in his life. Whenever someone would come to him seeking advice or just a shoulder to lean on, he would invariably whip out his bible and show scripture verses pertinent to the issue at hand or just as a form of spiritual comfort in a time of despair.

Another facet of the man was his sense of humour. He often made you feel better about yourself, your situation and life in general. Seeing what he had been through in his professional and personal life, and how through it all he still managed to find it within himself to be a comfort and friend to those around him made you gain a new perspective on life and how your situation is never as hopeless at it seems.

To hear all the ways he has touched others and how much he loved his family would fill more pages than I could ever write here and ever hope to do justice to. So I will leave it to others to write their own personal epitaphs.

To you Eddie, we will always remember and treasure what you gave us. And yearn to in our own little ways touch others the way you touched and inspired us to.

He is survived by his wife, Vickie; and daughters Shaul, 14; Sherilyn, 9; and Kaylie Marie, 3.

The Unforgettable Fire

Ice, your only rivers run cold
These city lights, they shine as silver and gold
Took from the night, your eyes as black as coal

Walk on by, walk on through
Walk till you run and don't look back for here I am

Carnival, the wheels fly and the colours spin
Through alcohol, red wine that punctures the skin
Face to face in a dry and waterless place

Walk on by, walk on through
So sad to beseach your love so head on
Stay in this night, stay tonight in a lie
I'm only asking but I think you know
Come on and take me away
Come on and take me away
Come on, take me home
Home again

Ever, ever, ever high
And here she comes
Yet she's so far

And if the mountains should crumble
Or disappear into the sea
Not a tear, no not I
Stay in this time
Stay tonight in a lie
Ever after this loving time
And if you save your love
Save your love, save it all
Don't push me too far
Don't push me too far tonight
Tonight, tonight

Hurt by Nine Inch Nails/Johnny Cash

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way