thoughts from the last few days...

• ever since me and Agnes and I hooked up I have been blogging less.And when I do blog it is normally not about my day but 'general' stuff. I guess my reason for having this blog in the first place was that I needed an outlet for my thoughts and feelings. I guess I have a real life person whom I can express those very same thoughts and feelings to which makes writing them here kind of redundant. It is not that I am thinking of retiring the blog,just that the content of my posts have changed from before.Another reason is that I have been spending lots of my after work hours with Agnes that by the time I get home I do not have time to blog as I have work the next day and sleep is a priority then.*sheepish grin*
• Gonna start a third blog soon. The new one is gonna be about Agnes and I. Mainly pictures and some writing presumably. I will post my usual pics at the Photo Blog but those of Agnes and myself will be at the new yet unnamed blog.
• Just installed the new PC-cillin. works a charm. got rid of lots of the crap on my pc.
• Gonna have to procure a new handheld vacuum cleaner soon. Sunny is so dusty with dust(duh) and Camou's fur. No sign yet of Agnes's hair though. Hee hee...
• My fish tank is kinda just there. The grass seems to have stopped growing and some have already started to yellow.Malnutrition presumably. No significant difference in quantity of fish life in the tank.Everything is just kinda there.Period.
• Going Sentosa later with my dearie.Gonna take lots of pictures.Will post them here in due time.
• Khim and I seem to be getting along rather well lately especially the last couple of days at the Timber Identification course. Hope it is a sign of good things to come..
• Agnes and I bought matching rings at Bugis yesterday. So now we are 'officially' a couple. Agnes even mentioned taking Salsa classes and taking Neo prints. *hair standing* Something about guys who salsa being more attractive and being better in bed. *gulp*
• I been playing on repeat U2's Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own on my car hi-fi.Just love this song. Can relate to it on so many levels..
• It feels so good to have someone who loves me right back. I tend to put my own interests aside for my partner.I am so happy Agnes does not take advantage of that. In fact she doies the exact same thing so everyone is happy. She is the sweetest.Wish I met her sooner in my life..
• Agnes has met my folks lots this week. Seems they have really taken to her. Maybe they are just being nice for my sake, but I think Agnes is cut from a different piece of cloth. In time they will see what I see...
• I do not know what it is, but seems like Camou has slowed a step or two.Maybe it is his health issues or whatever. He used to be hyperactive but now he does not seem to keep up with me on our walk/runs like he used to. Our runs seem more like leisurely strolls now. Not that I am complaining though.
• a picture of Agnes is at the photo blog. Go take a look.

I Will Remember You

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

serendipity

1. The faculty of making fortunate discoveries by accident.

2. The fact or occurrence of such discoveries.

3. An instance of making such a discovery.

4. good luck in making unexpected and fortunate discoveries

Things You Really Don’t Want to Hear Her Saying at The End of Your Date

1. “Like that only, ah? Tcheh!”

2. “Next!”

3. “Aiyah, wen die, lah. Syphilis only.”

4. “You are under arrest. You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you in a court of law…”

5. “Can you drop me off at Woodbridge? I have to book in early tonight.”

6. “(Sigh) Looks like tomorrow, it’s back to the SDU again.”

7. “Thanks for a great time, Uncle.”

8. “Next week, don’t forget to come for my 14th birthday, ‘kay?”

9. “It’s not me. It’s you.”

10. “(Giggle) No, that’s not my brother in the photo! That’s me before my operation!”

11. “I had such a good time tonight that next time I want to bring my mother along!”

12. “I’m sorry… it’s just that the kind of person I’m looking for in a relationship is someone with more… length.”

13. (Gets out of car and shouts into her house:) “Children! Come out and meet your new daddy!”

14. “That will be $250. So… same time next week?”

15. “Have you heard about network marketing?”

16. “Do you want to join Young PAP?”

----- needlessly illicited from talkingcock.com --------

Top Signs You Should Call Off Your Wedding

1. Wedding ring is engraved with the words “One ring to rule them all.”

2. You catch your truck driver fiancé learning English from a 16-year old ang mor “teacher”. Yeah, right.

3. Your prospective in-laws all have major tattoos, and strange people keep turning up and addressing your father-in-law as “Tua Tao”.

4. During the wedding ceremony, the groom’s cellphone rings – and he answers it.

5. When the Justice of the Peace/Priest asks if there is anyone who wishes to object to the marriage, the groom’s ex-boyfriend puts up his hand.

6. “I take you, Jasmine, wait, Bee Leng, no, I mean Nancy… uh, sorry, sorry… what’s your name again, ah?”

7. At the end of administering the wedding vows, the Justice of the Peace/Priest asks, “Is that your final answer?”

8. Bride/groom says, “Chope, chope, chope, did you just say ‘till DEATH do us part’?”

9. Your bride is more well-endowed than you.

10. Instead of “I do”, your bride/groom says, after a long pause, “Okay, okay, boh pian, lah.”

11. Groom forgets to take his cigarette out of his mouth when he kisses you.

12. Stripper jumps out of the wedding cake.

13. Bride insists that ‘slimming laxative tea’ be used in the tea ceremony.

14. During the wedding dinner, he sings, “To all the girls I’ve loved before.”

15. At the wedding banquet, the groom replaces the champagne cascade with a “Newater waterfall”.

16. All the tropical seaside honeymoon locations he proposes are offering a “tsunami discount”.

17. Jack Neo is following you around taking notes.


---tastelessly plundered from talkingcock.com------

Top Ways to Beat the Heat Without an Air Con

1. Go and wash your car. Sure rain shortly after that.

2. Try to buaya a supermodel. She’ll give you the cold shoulder.

3. Go to 7-11 and buy a Slurpee and drink it real fast. You will kena brain freeze.

4. The same effect can be achieved by watching any MediaCock channel.

5. Go to the Jurong Bird Park and get a lap dance from a penguin.

6. Drink lots of beer. It may warm you up even more, but then you won’t notice after a while.

7. Go and surf the Young PAP website. It will chill you to the bone.

8. Go to Geylang and ask a China mei mei how much for a blow job, then offer $2 for her to just blow the hot air away from you.

9. Go and kachau the Gahmen and let the ISD give you the Air-Con Treatment.

10. Use a very big stick. (Okay, so that was si beh corny, but who can think properly in such hot weather?)

11. Stand in Moses Lim’s shadow.

12. Get hit by a car. Enjoy the breeze as you fly through the air.

13. Become a Minister. Earn a million bucks to buy yourself a tok kong fan.

14. Join the PAP. Enjoy the frosty glare of your friends.

15. Apply for a permit to conduct a political demonstration. If it’s granted, even hell will freeze over.

-shamelessly pillaged from talkingcock.com

Church of Euthanasia? ?

I just stumbled upon this site which looking for some pictures.

excerpts:

The Four Pillars: Suicide, Abortion, Sodomy and Cannabalism! -What kind of nuts are these?

The One Commandment:
"Thou shalt not procreate" -I wonder if they suffer from poor attendances

Save the Planet,Kill Yourself -see above

has a moving conter displaying the approximate human population on the planet.-of course it keeps going up and never down.wonder how accurate it is.

'Did sperm wind up somewhere it shouldn't? Call 1-800-584-9911 right now for emergency contraception. Hurry! You've got 72 hours!'- hurry!! only 72 hours!

Celebrate infertility- err....ok...lets have a parade.nothing elaborate...

The FAQ is a hoot also.

Sick people in this world

final passage

Attended Uncle Ong's funeral this afternoon. The mandai crematorium is cool. A good place to go to if not for the purpose for which it was built.

Mum and dad followed me. It is great we can still do stuff together. We got there early and did not go to Singapore Casket but straight to the place. As such we had time to take in the sights so to speak. I like what they did with the place. It is like an oasis in the desert(or in the forest in this case if that makes any sense at all).

It has water features such as a waterfall and a koi pond even. The main building is fully air-conditioned and equipped with modern technology such as automated escalators,lifts,electric notice boards and these electric operated trolley like things that make coffin transport so much easier. It is so peaceful and dignified. Only thing lacking is piped-in music to complete a Zen experience. Seriously.



I was surprised that no one else from the office took the time to attend. In a way we are more family to him than his blood family. Just taken aback by the lack of support.

It was a solemn occasion presided by a buddhist monk. The 3 kids did the usual joss holding/bowing down thing. Not sure what it is called. Paying respects for lack of better word(s). Quite a number of people turned up. Close to 40. But no one i knew besides the kids and the 'wife'.

We sat near the back and observed the proceedings.

After the rites had been performed the body was carted out and we all went to the viewing room which consisted of a huge glass panel and a multi-tiered viewing platforms. From that vantage point we could see clearly the room below. The coffin slowly made its way towards the crematoria on this automated trolley.Doors open and closed on cue. At the appropriate time the coffin was lifted and placed inside. The door closed blocking off our view of the furnace.

the end.

I am all for advances in technology but in a way it did feel rather impersonal the way everything happened so mechanically. But I guess it was tasteful and dignified in a modern sort of way.

After the do, we (the 3 of us) headed back to the car and headed home.

things i learnt from agnes

1) a kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca(no idea what that means)

2)Always make time to talk.Talking is the best part in every relationship.Once hanky-panky sets in then not that fun already. It is said if you can engage her mind...you can engage her...nvm...

3) variety is the spice of life.

4) It is not where you are, but who you are with.

5) never overplan things.Always leave some room for something to happen

6) still waters do indeed run deep

7) love can be found when you least expect it. so never stop looking.

8) A mother of a dog is not always a bitch

9) Valentine's Day is about love not sex.

10) When watching a movie choose the one with the longest queue

11) Sometime You Can't Make It On Your Own

12) Never be too mushy early on. Although she likes it she will not admit it.

13) It is the little things that matter in the end

14) One Beanie Baby begets another

15) Your word is your life.Keep it!

16) Women loves babies and pets. Have either one and you have one foot in the door already. Unless she is allergic to babies or hates dogs.

17)Be persistent and sincere. But not too persistent please...

18)Slow and steady wins the race.

19)Jealousy is not always a bad thing.

20)When making a point,put it across in a funny way.

Mega churches

I read this article a while ago and have been wanting to comment on it. I still have not. Not yet anyway.

It is all about the so called mega churches. A mega church is a church that is mega(duh).Read:big and successful.

I happen to attend New Creation Church. Yes...a mega church.

Seems some of the more conventional of our kind have taken issue with the methods and running of such churches which they feel is contrary to scripture or some crap like that. I not sure where they get their 'scripture' from.But brethren just for the sake of argument please back up for accusations with cold hard...BIBLE VERSES.. not man-made rules about what and how a church should be. If you are happy with a small church with a membership of 20 then fine. But you cannot expect a church of 13,000 to be run like a sunday school.

And finally (not)...we are all part of the Body of Christ. About bloody(the precious blood) time you started acting like it.

the dullest blog

Just came across this blog. Do give it a look-see if you have the time. I mean if you really,really have the time. He calls it the 'The dullest blog in the world ' which may be true but still for some reason unbeknownst to me I feel drawn to read on...more and more...one and on. I am not quite sure why. Probably the same thing that makes people pick up roadkill along the road or slow down at the scene of a road accident (beside 4-D numbers). We are all just suckers for pain!

So happy reading...

new stuff

As with everything else in life,changes are abrewing in Lion land. I found love with Agnes. Uncle Ong passed away on friday. Gonna be some changes in personnel at work. Things change.The only constant is change some wise-ass once said.

Some for better...some for worse...

One change I made is I made a link (finally) to Xiaxue's blog. Her's is one of the few blog's I love going to to read. I wish I could write like her sometimes. Everytime after a read at her's I just get this naughty streak in me as far as my own bloggies go. Irrepressible,irreverent and biting but altogether entertaining writings. Go check her out.And Hasli..go check out her pictures! One photogenic babe this xiaxue is...

As you may or may not realise I have changed the background to my blog once more.This is all to do with Uncle Ong's passing. A tribute of sorts in my own way just to say what he means to me. Gonna change it to something less sombre later on in the week. Maybe tweak the colours also.

I am gonna re-do some of the links in the blog.Gonna have to sort them out according to type or something. It is now just filled with lots of links that lead to sites I do not visit even. So out with those and in with those I do visit. Maybe I will also have a special section just for blogs just to make my links look neater.

To my dad...

Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough

I love my dad but for some reason in recent years we have grown apart somewhat.I guess he is getting on in years and his minor stroke a couple of years back kind of left him a shell of his former self. It is not that he is bedridden or anything. Just that his mental faculty's are not what they used to be. He is like those old men you see in the movies or TV that loves telling yarns of when he was a kid. The stories are interesting the first few hundred times but after that it kind of gets old.

You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

I love my dad for who he is. For while we were going up he was the sole bread-winner. He worked in all sorts of jobs. He was in the Royal Armed Forces and Police dog unit. He also spent sometime in a shipyard.What doing? I do not exactly try to remember. I also remember fondly the years when he was in the zoo in its formative years. Many a weekend was spent there. I got my love of animals and nature from my dad. And his working in the zoo and his way with dogs especially rubbed off on me.
Weekdays were spent sitting in the zoo minibus as dad shuttled around in his work to the various shops and factories acquiring stuff for the zoo when he came to pick us up from home. Such a family man he was.

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

He also had stints working as a cook at the Hollanse Club, a security guard at various places(including the Night Safari) and at Singapore Casket (as a pall bearer/embalmer). I still remember running around the darkened halls of Singapore Casket in the dead of night(pun quite intended). Quite creepy the embalming room is with the sight and sounds , blood and all these bottles of chemicals. *brrr*

On the flipside was when my dad was retrenched when I was in P6 from the zoo during the economic downturn. We were at a loss at what to do. Me and Noel were still too young to do anything to help.Mum never worked and had no intention to anyway. Leo was and always will be a self-serving asshole. It was during that dark period that I also found out who my true friends were and who were the ones who were only there to enjoy my generosity when times were good.

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

I take after my dad in many ways. My 2 brothers take after my mum.We both have the same calm demeanour.That is not to say we suffer fools easily. We both have the prospensity to explode in frustration when people get on our nerves.It does not happen often but whe it does no one is safe. We also have the same philosophy to work. We tend to value loyalty and trust. We both believe in sticking to our guns and fighting for our staff's welfare. We tend to disdain office politics and cliques and distance ourselves from it much to our own detriment. My dad is also easy-going and flexible when it comes to most matters. A usual reply to most questions would be "anything", "whatever" or "up to you".And people wonder where I get it from.

We fight all the time
You and I... that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need... I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more

My dad is now retired. He quite fancies himself the handyman around the house. He cooks well. He helps with the washing, cleaning,ironing,gardening...well..a whole lot. My mum is a lucky lady to have him although she does not say it often enough. Mum and dad are still lovey-dovey even after all these years. It is something I aspire too in my relationships. I believe the spark should never be allowed to die between a husband and a wife. You are never too old to love and be loved. No one ever outlives their usefulness until they quit trying. My dad still buys flowers and greets my mum with a morning kiss. I guess I inherited that 'handyman' trait from my dad. I love doing things with my hands. I wanted to go to ITE before just to learn some skills and get a certificate. An option to consider still now.

to all the ladies reading this: I AM GOOD WITH MY HANDS!! Hahahaa..

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

Many weekends were spent also at the beach and at the airports. That is where my wanderlust comes from. Some people are just plain amazed at the places I go to and the things I do. I developed this desire to seek out far flung ,obscure places in Singapore. Now that I drive I do it even more now. Back in the day, we used to visit all the various parks and attractions.That is where my 'intimate' knowledge of parks and reservoirs stems from.(just for the ones who think it came from my late night rendezvous with an assortment of floozies)

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

Of course not everything I learnt from dad was good. We both have that stubborn streak at times. Hard-headed is how my mum puts it. I guess we protect what is ours and rise up against 'oppression'. We also have the same tendency(or lack thereof) to back down in tense times. Do not ask me how someone can be stubborn and forthright yet be a pussy cat at the same time. You can say we choose our battles and our spots. Anyone who has had conversation with me would be aware of my short one-word answers and mumbled , slow drawl type replies. Do not blame me! I got it from my dad! He is the one. Like father, like son. Anyway that's my story and I am sticking to it!

I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can you hear me when I Sing,
you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me

Anyway. the reason for this blog is that that me and my dad have some issues. He just gets on my nerves at times.I know he cares and all for me. But sometimes it gets a little suffocating. I am no longer a kid yet at times I feel like he treats me like one.I am after all his favourite son and I think he feels bad about how Noel and leo got more attention and is trying to make up for it now. I know I should be grateful to be such blessed, but it is not just what he says or does but how it makes me feel that is the real problem. I just hold so many fond memories of my dad. But when I look at him now I do feel a bit of resentment and abit of frustration of who he is now compared to the dad I used to know. It is unfair I know. But I just loved and looked up to him so much growing up that it pains me now to see him in this state. I do not stand alone in this view. My siblings,Mum,Paula and Lynn have also voiced similar frustrations. But I think it is cruel of them to say such things. Why not me?

Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone

I will strive to be more patient. More understanding. More tolerant. To look at my dad through new eyes. He has changed and so have I. Time did not stand still for either of us. I have to be the man of the house. Leo is there but virtually non-existent as a leader of a home except in his own warped mind. Noel is a good fillial son but he has enough on his plate for a lifetime right now. I have to be the one to make sense of this family. But I do not know quite how...

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

Almost Paradise

I thought that dreams belonged to other men
’cause each time I got close
They’d fall apart again

I feared my heart would beat in secrecy
I faced the nights alone
Oh, how could I have known
That all my life I only needed you?

Whoa
Almost paradise
We’re knockin’ on heaven’s door
Almost paradise
How could we ask for more?
I swear that I can see forever in your eyes
Paradise

It seems like perfect love’s so hard to find
I’d almost given up
You must have read my mind

And all these dreams I saved for a rainy day
They’re finally coming true
I’ll share them all with you
’cause now we hold the future in our hands

Whoa
Almost paradise
We’re knockin’ on heaven’s door
Almost paradise
How could we ask for more?
I swear that I can see forever in your eyes
Paradise

And in your arms salvation’s not so far away
It’s getting closer
Closer every day

It’s almost paradise
We’re knockin’ on heaven’s door
Almost paradise
How could we ask for more?
I swear that I can see forever in your eyes
Paradise

Whoa
Almost paradise
We’re knockin’ on heaven’s door
Almost paradise
How could we ask for more?
I swear that I can see forever in your eyes
Paradise

for all the things I never knew I wanted

I know my poor readers have had to read all my recent blogs with their hair standing and feelings of nausea but the fact is I am in love. So madly deeply in love. With Agnes I might add.
(for those with a low threshold for sappy love please exit now)

Agnes was not someone I thought I could love. First there was the educational aspect of it. To say the least she is better educated than me for whatever that is worth. I did not feel worthy of someone like her. Some emotional baggage from my previous relationship I guess. But Agnes loves me unconditionally for who I am. When someone loves you that much you want to do all you can to make them happy back in return.
Although it has been only a week officially for us, I do think the best is ahead of us. We seem to get stronger and stronger in love as the days go by.
In a sense all the parts fit. It is almost like it is meant to be. We complement one another so well it is crazy. I never want to be apart from her even though we have to for practical reasons. People say it is just a phase we are going through. But I beg to differ. I think this is the real deal.

Fire

You're riding in my car
I turn on the radio
I'm pulling you closer
But you keep tellin' me no
You say you don't like it
But I know you're a liar
'Cause when we kiss
Ooh...

Fire

Late at night
You're taking me home
You say you wanna stay
But I want you to go
Say I don't love you
But you know I'm a liar
'Cause when we kiss
Ooh...

Fire

You had a hold on me right from the start
A grip so tight I couldn't tear it apart
My nerves all jumpin' actin' like a fool
Well my kisses might burn
But my heart stays cool

Well Romeo and Juliet
Sampson and Delilah
Baby you can bet
They were burnin' with desire
If I say split
Then I know that I'd be lying
'Cause when we kiss
Ooh...

Fire

When we kiss
I'm on fire
Your tenderness
Gives me desire
I can't resist
Your tender lips
When we kiss
Ooh...

Fire

When we kiss
I'm on fire
Your tenderness
Gives me desire
I can't resist
Your tender lips
When we kiss
Ooh...

Fire