another untitled entry

Funny how things never end up how we thought them to be
Silly how we let life slip through our fingers
What was once promise has now faded away
Feel so helpless, feel so hopeless

It was only my mistake, one mistake
Should never have let him do the things he did to me
Never should have fallen into his guilty trips
Made me feel smaller than I was

Now I am left here all alone
This life inside of me grows
My life getting smaller and smaller
Or so it seems
Oh, how low have I fallen?

Nothing makes sense anyway
Do not know what to do or what to say
Paying the price for a mistake not mine alone
All whom I thought were friends desert me in the end

I lose my strength,I lost myself
Somewhere along the way
Looking forward to the brand new day
As I lay my weary soul down to pray
Wish it was still my yesterday

My dreams I still dream
To the places I may have been
Things my own eyes have seen
Wonder what it all means in the end

Now I have to go
And dream my life up all over again
Wipe away the pain in these eyes
Or at least make a try

This life inside of me
Will someday be better than me
Be all the things that I wanted to be
Life still goes on even if we do not want it to
All because of you, all because of...you

sleepy thursday

It has been a sleepy week thus far. After the long CNY weekend, it is a real bore to have to turn up for work. The worst part(or best part depending on which side of the fence you sit on) is that many of the traders and companies are still closed, so business is slow this week. That makes time pass by ever so slowly.

Being today Khimster is on urgent leave,I have the time to do my own stuff. But even then it is not much fun. Grr! Cannot win either way. Either have to do too much or having too little to do.

Met Agnes yesterday after work. After work I had headed down to IMM. I walked a bit and then bought some food from Long John Silver's. I then brought whatever it was I had bought to Agnes's place. We hung around there a bit doing some work and having our dinner.
Sent her home thereafter.

This gonna be one of those post about nothing in particular and where I go on a tangent, where no one really gets what I trying to say.

On Tuesday Agnes and I finally met up and we went to the Flower festival on Sentosa. It was ok. Nothing great. The worst part was all the crowds. Especially those inconsiderate aunties with their big umbrellas. They look like crap and still they carry around these umbrellas hoping that deadly sun rays do not penetrate upon their skin. The paths are rather narrow as it is, a situation made worse by all these umbrella totting aunties. We also managed to take some pictures at the nearby Lost Civilisations and Ruined City. Will post them as soon as I post them.

Stayed home most of Monday.

On Sunday went service and then dinner at Agne's place.

Saturday: reunion dinner at Agnes's place. Had steamboat in a rice cooker! I should seriously consider getting a real steamboat(or BBQ steamboat) for them next year.

Have to attend a service excellence thingy on 16th. Should be fun to be away from office. Only thing is I have no idea who else is attending. Dunno if have any kaki or not.

21st and 22nd have a defensive driving course at bukit batok. Going with Wong and Lyn. Should be fun. Sin only had good things to say about the course when he attended it.

Bought new bed sheets! Yippie. I love new bed sheets. One of my hobbies although not a hobby I cultivate much. Think one of those I got was in the form of chickens. The other had a tortoise/turtle motif. Not as childish-looking as one would think. But I have different taste than the general populace..

Added music to Love Divine site. It is 'Untitled' by Simple Plan. One of Agnes's favourite songs...

Also this site has undergone yet another makeover. Many of the links have been made 'picture-less' so the page loads faster. Also many new links have been added. Some dead links have also been updated .
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Since it is the Year of the Dog it is timely for some poochie humour:

Collie + Lhasa Apso = Collapso: a dog that folds up for easy transport

Terrier + Bichon Frise = Terrierise: a dog you need to watch for violent behaviour

Doberman + Poodle = Doodle: a dog that’s easy to draw

Labrador Retriever + Curly Coated Retriever = Lab Coat Retriever: the favourite of Biopolis research scientists

Terrier + Bulldog = Terribull: not a very nice dog

Pekinese + Bulldog = Peekabull: a dog that likes to play hide and seek

Cocker Spaniel + Doberman + Poodle = Cockadoodle: a dog that can be a bit chicken

Spitz + Chow Chow = Spitz-Chow: a dog that throws up a lot

Collie + Malamute = Commute: a dog that travels to work every day

Weimaraner + Neapolitan Mastiff + Poodle = Wei-Nea the Poo: the puppy who likes hunny in his tummy

Bull Terrier + Shih-tzu = Uh, never mind....

Chihuahua + Basset Hound + Irish Setter = Eh! This is a family website, ok!

Chow Chow + Chihuahua + Basset Hound + Irish Setter = Oi! I said stop it!

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and a picture for those of you into such things:



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Since I am doing this during office hours and using office computers, these are some things I should look out for(just in case)if my boss is keeping tabs on me:

Wherever you go you're followed by a potted plant in loafers.

The bracelet he gave you for Christmas blinks if you leave your work station/ cubicle.

Your name,"Leon." Next to your parking spot: "Reserved for the guy following Leon"

Your new secretary looks a lot like that chick from "Alias"

Instead of photos of wife and kids on his desk, he has a photo of you sleeping.

When you're alone in the men's room, a voice tells you to quit blocking the lens.

There seem to be a blinking red light inside the smoke detector.

The fax machine just coughed.

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What's My Ideal Relationship?

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

What is Your Blogging Personality?

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog. You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head. Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent. You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

impulsive? uncensored?? shock?? Little old me? :P

New years bloggology

True to expectations, CNY has been a bore thus far. On Saturday had reunion dinner at Agnes's place with her family. We all had steamboat (in a rice cooker pot no less!). After that we watched the CNY show on TV. We then spent some time on the couch if you know what I mean. ;)
On Sunday I went down to the Indoor Stadium for weekly service. This time it was a combined services at 4.30 pm. The stadium was relatively packed despite it being the first day of the New Year. At least some people have their priorities right. I think.After church, I headed to Agnes place once more for dinner. This time chicken curry with bread was on the menu. The most significant thing that happened was receiving a red packet from Agnes's dad. Being that he does not work, getting a red packet from him was unexpected and therefore even more meaningful. Agnes was sleepy after dinner so slept most of the rest of the evening away. I alternately became her pillow and footrest. As usual there was only crap on TV.
And today we are not scheduled to meet as Agnes has 'tons' of work to do and will not be able to entertain me. So I might as well not bother turning up. On the flip side, Agnes's mum prepared lots of nice food for tonight. Too bad I will be missing out on that.

Been thinking:
- About having a dog. I am more a dog person than a cat person. I love cats but I love dogs even more. Especially on days like this that I wish I had a dog. Dog's are loyal companions and friends. How I miss Camou now. He and I spent so many hours together. He was a big part of my life during the time we were together. I do hope to have a dog of my own, but it would not be fair to the dog as I am away at work most of the day. That would of course mean that the dog would have to be cared for by my mum and dad in the day, which is not fair to them either. If I do get a dog, I would probably adopt one from the SPCA rather than from a pet shop. The dogs there probably need an owner more anyway.

- The other day we went to Great World City to watch a movie. There is this pet shop there that sells all sort of cool stuff and small animals too. I was particularly enamoured by the hamsters and guinea pigs. I would not rule out the possibility of keeping either, or even both, if my current tank setup does not work out.I could house them in the current 2 foot tank in my room. Dunno if that is an entirely feasible idea, since hamsters and maybe guinea pigs literally stink. No idea what that might do to the room since it is not exactly the most well-ventilated of abodes.

- Still looking out for some neat part-time courses. As I meantioned I was looking into something along the lines of business management or business administration. There is this big school just opposite my house. If I could find a course I like that would be way cool. Convenient for me ,man!

- Repairs: still gotta get my cable modem checked out. It works when it feels like and then goes on the blink for no apparent reason . In recent times I have used the wireless network at my home to go online. But that is not a long term solution, as we are still paying for the monthly cable connection, so not using it would be a waste. Likewise my PC is not exactly reliable. Worst part is that the O.S. is probably not original so I can't update windows. So it is particularly vulnerable to infections. The anti-spy software and anti-virus software helps to identify and delete viruses and hacks etc, but do not quite get rid of the problem as almost daily new ones pop up. sometimes even the same one again and again. Lastly my phone. As I mentioned in an earlier post my Motorola E680 has been giving me problems and I am now currently using my trusty Samsung.

- The lobsters in my smaller tank are growing! It is easy to tell cos each time they shed/moult their old 'shells' it means they are getting bigger! It is kinda more gratifying watching them grow. The pay-off is a bit more immediate than with the fish where there is hardly any discernible growth in fish compared to the lobsters.

- Sentosa is having their (now)annual flower festival aptly names Sentosa Flowers 2006. Maybe tomorrow if Agnes is free we could both go down there and maybe take some nice pictures. And then laze by the beach. We see how things fall tomorrow.

-Speaking of Sentosa, Agnes and I been together nearly a year. And dating even before that. In a sense things have come full circle for us. We first started off at last years staff welfare dinner at Peck Seah Street, and just last month we celebrated another one, this time at Pahang Street. And last year I went to Agnes home for CNY reunion dinner, likewise this year. Of course last year things were different from how things are now. For one Agnes is back in school. So I have no idea how that will affect our upcoming 1 year celebrations and Valentine's Day next month. But I do feel we have been through all of this before and this year is gonna be even better if I have anything to say about it.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind - a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Your Birth Month is October

You are a natural leader who is able to stand up when no one else can. Strong and powerful, you tend to overshadow those around you. Your soul reflects: Gratitude, comfort, and true love Your gemstone: Tourmaline Your flower: Cosmos Your colors: White and yellow

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?